I've written a few posts on this blog. So far it's only been me and my partner who've visited my site. Sometimes I wonder what's the point of making this website. Am I wasting my time, energy, and money?

Recently, after losing access to my Instagram account, I decided to limit my use of YouTube too. There's just too much noise and distraction out there that I think are unnecessary. Which made me think about my own blog. Am I making too much unnecessary noise too?

I hope not. Don't get me wrong, I wish more people visit my site. I want to meet like minded people. But I want readers to take something away from it. I hope not to waste their time.

Then I am reminded of the people I admire. They started doing their projects for the sake of it. They didn't dream of having thousands of followers. They just had this pull to do it. To find a way to express what it is they wanted to express.

I guess it's the same for me. I created this blog as a way to document my life's journey. I wanted a space to articulate my thoughts on life. What does it mean to be alive? What is a good life? How do I want to live my life? What old beliefs should I unlearn in the hope of bettering myself?

I hate using this word "calling". I feel like a lot of people have used it and it had lost its meaning. But for awhile I've had this pull for this "calling". I've had this longing to go on this journey, to unpack it, cut it open, dissect it and see what it means to be alive.